What Day Was it?

Most of the websites i've visited in the past few days tend to focus on this occassion. Even this gossip columnist write such a touching story about it. Well...here's my five cents of thoughts.

Though he's still alive but in hiding (due to all the s**ts he had created), I will not be like most of you, having the positive and good memories, for all I had are his selfish behavior, his infidelity, his addiction, his lies, my telephone-ring phobia which took me two years to get rid of, the tense nights waiting for quarrel/ fighting to happen, the hard-earned and kept money all gone within seconds, the envy feeling everytime I heard/saw a father bringing his family for holidays, the 'wanted to kill those lucky f**kers' feeling everytime I heard them talking about how their father support them in terms of monetary and many many more.

I can only dedicate this song to him

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did, You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid
Because of you

to those who are much fortunate than me, i hope you cherish the love your father had for you.