but instead and just

instead of putting effort in controlling the epidemic, here we are scurrying for power & status
instead of focusing on what we should be, here we are seeking for something that's not there
instead of exploring new routes, here we are continue to return to places that haunt & hurt us
and just when you give up on it, it came right back to you
and just when decision had been made, course had been altered, it seems to pull you back
but instead and just
is there anyway we could?